It’s been 3 months since my mum passed away, I’m still working on ways to cope, ways to accept that I’ll never see her in this world again, and seeing the sadness in my dad when we visit.
I’ve had a few days of being gentle with myself as we passed that first quarter of a year, remembering how much I have to be grateful for from her, and enjoying having lots of practical work time while I meditated and reflected.
There’s a big part of me just wants to curl up in a ball right now, but of course I can’t do that. I have a business, a home, children of my own who need me present. So my crochet, knitting, reading and some binge watching, as well as taking some time to be with my girls too have been foremost in my week.
When you lose a loved one, a close loved one, your world changes. It isn’t always negative changes though. Aside from these few days, every so often, where I need to remember my loss, I have spent the last 3 month’s reflecting on all the things my mum showed me in life, good and bad parts from our past, that have brought me to where I am now.
I have learned to take the best parts of her, her life, her history and grow on from them.
Next week I’ll be back to full on business head and organised mum role. For now I’m remembering my own mum, her determination to look after her family before all things, to see us as more important than any one else, and to work hard to give us the best she could 💜
It wasn’t always roses, but it was always love!
Much love to you all