My Lord where do I start? What do I say?
Well I don’t want to write too much, it’s too hard, but I do need to share something here and post about my absence. I know I don’t have to, however it’s been big and writing something will help.
Four weeks ago my mum died. I have mentioned her a couple of times this year, the last time was to share how she’d been poorly and we were concerned. Well back in June cancer was discovered and within 4 weeks she had sadly passed away.
I’m not sure I’ll ever be able to explain all the feelings and emotions that go through you when your hear a doctor say those words. So much, so many. First of all given her dementia condition it made the prognosis poor, but they did decide to perform a minor operation in the hopes she would be able to eat again and regain some strength. At the end of June she was readmitted to hospital just over a week from the diagnosis and I dropped all things here in West Yorkshire and travelled by train with my 3 year old to go and stay with my dad.
His own condition of macular degeneration makes things hard from a different point of view. As the Teeny Girl and I stayed with him we helped him with small day to day tasks, but he showed great resilliance and ingenuity to carry out many things, and together we did things like make fruit bread in his bread machine and cooked hotpot and savoury mince to my mum’s recipe.
That morning on the 9th July when he came into me at 5.30am to say my mum had gone was like nothing else. Torn between sadness, relief at her no longer suffering, concern for how my dad would cope, and knowing within a week I’d get to see my hubby and 2 bigger girls again, was a massive mix of emotions.
Of course in the middle of it all massive work based things happened. That’s the side of self employment. It was awesome to be able to just drop and go and be with my dad. To be able to take an amount of work with me and to be able to continue some of the admin jobs like updating shops and social media. I opened a shop on a brand new site just a week after joining my dad. I wanted to be so excited about it, but it was tinged with the fact I couldn’t just focus on that and learn the new platform. I continued working on my other new shop is opened in May on the nuMonday platform where for now all custom orders will be taken. Finally I also upgraded this site so that I will eventually be able to move some of my shop and sales over here for more complex items, especially adult wear.
I’d like to take one final minute to thank the wonderful customers that I received orders from to be made in time for winter, but without the pressure to make and ship while I was away from home. These orders enabled me to have the means to go at a moments notice to catch the train and rush to be with my dad during this hard time and visit my mum as much as I was able in her last weeks.
So, that’s it. One huge update on where I have been and what is going on and now after a few weeks spent regrouping and reassessing plans I’m back and ready to show you great things 💜
Much love and blessings