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A hard week

Hey all you lovely people. This is a deep and personal piece from me today, but I feel I need to share to ease the inward emotions and turmoil. You know sometimes, despite all the best intentions and inner work and self care, life has some lessons to teach you that you’re not necessarily ready for.

Last week was one of those weeks. My super supportive and enduring mum is 81 years old next month. For some time now she’s been suffering the effects of dementia, Alzheimer’s and vascular dementia. Over the last few weeks my dad, himself 82, has seen a deterioration in her, and last week he was concerned enough to start asking for more help.

Having to face their mortality this last week has been a lesson to me, a lesson in my own feelings towards life, and towards death. I am hoping that the medical assistance she’s been getting for a few days will alleviate some of the recent problems, infection can after all play games with the mind, especially of the elderly. However, I do have to accept that at 80 years old she is not going to live forever in this world and what does that mean for me?

Anyone who knows me, knows that I have mixed feelings about my mum. Society and association she had when I was a child, meant she did certain things she went on to regret, namely disciplining me physically and my being left as a toddler to cry myself to sleep at night. This has caused me feelings of resentment over the years. I’ve never denied her motherly love for me, or my daughterly love for her, she has just been super supportive of everything I’ve ever done, but I did feel hurt for those early years, I have to admit it.

However, a few months ago I was loaned a fabulous book You Can Heal Your Life by the late Louise Hay. In this she talked about forgiveness and how important it is to forgive those who hurt us. She talked about how children choose the parents they will born to, and how if you feel your parents did wrong by you, then you need to seek the lesson that taught you and feel forgiveness in your heart. Well, do you know what I did when I first read that? I shut the book! I shut the book, and thought ‘no, nope, I am not accepting that’. I didn’t even realise just how strong that resentment was until that moment. This idea that my soul had chosen to come and be hurt in ways that still affected me so deeply? No, I wasn’t accepting that.

So I closed the book and never planned on completing it, I didn’t think it was right for me. Over the course of the next few days those words and some other wise words I was listening too and ready in my self-help, self care journey, made me meditate deeply on those feelings that had come up, and do you know what I found? I found forgiveness! I realised that YES, I had chosen my mum to be my mum, because she needed the wild spirit that was in me to lighten and brighten her life. And me? I needed those harsh early lessons in my life to teach me a better way. So that when my children’s souls chose me as a mum, I would find a more gentle approach to my parenting.

In all of my childhood experiences my dad and one of my older sisters taught me about peace, patience and long suffering, and I found happiness and kindness. Now when I think of that elderly lady lying in her hospital bed, telling my dad over and over how much she loves him, I see the loving and caring mum who was in there being forced by society to be hard on a free spirited and strong willed little girl, and I am more determined than ever to show my girls that love, respect and compassion that is deep inside my mum.

Whatever you do and however you feel about your parents, remember without them you wouldn’t have life, and without life you wouldn’t be able to find the joy that is always there, just a breath or a thought away <3

Much love

Davina <3

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Time to Teach

Hey lovelies, halfway to the weekend already! Today I’m talking about the very start of some of this years plans.

Towards the end of 2017 I started to teach. As a home educating mum who happens to 20170213_101444995190863.jpgknit and crochet I have been asked a few times about teaching children yarn crafts. A couple of years ago when I was juggling a relatively new baby and had newly moved house, I did a handful of lessons back in the city we had moved from. This presented a few challenges that ultimately ended up in my having to discontinue them. Almost an hour travel by train each way, occasional missing of lessons by students after I’d arrived, the baby (who came with me at that point) turning into a toddler who didn’t want to sit still for 3 hours while I taught, and just life, all got quite hectic. I was quite sad, because it was something I enjoyed, and I did vow to restart local to me, where I could stay home if everyone suddenly fell down sick, or the weather was so awful noone wanted to attend. But, my fears and worries all kept making me put it off.

20171205_1122122128706627.jpgAround October last year, the mum of one of the children I had previously taught put a request out for knitting teachers again. Local to me, and having been a previous pupil, I decided it was the sign I was waiting for to get my at together and start again. So I did! This time with more confidence, not in my crafts, I have been doing those long enough to trust my skill, but in my ability to assist someone else to make something incredible.

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In the meantime I had managed to teach one of my own children to the point she has finished projects and have had enough interest from adults to know once I have the resources adult lessons will be next. Yes, that’s right in a few weeks time I will be putting a call out for my first virtual, adult students to learn to knit or crochet.

For now I hope you’ve enjoyed the little pics through of my various students work, they do so great for little hands (my youngest student is just 7) and keep your eyes open in my Facebook Group for that call for adults students coming soon.

 

With much love

Davina

 

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Ahhhh, Getting Back into that Monday Groove

Hey Lovelies and Happy Motivational Monday.img_20180106_123237_7961901669046.jpg

So, all the celebrations are over now, in the last 2 weeks two of my girlies have gotten a whole year older, and NOW I can get back into the normal routine of Home Ed, Working Mum, Housewife life. Phew!

want somethingYeah, that means my Monday is back to getting out and working in peace in a nice local coffee shop. No clingy toddlers, no kids spellings, no ‘mum, mum, mum, look at what I drew/wrote/watched.’ My days like this are fabulous as they give me space and clarity, allow me to write and plan and focus for the week. I’ve said it before, but I LOVE MONDAY! Changing that whole negative vibe most people feel for Monday is life changing, Go on, Try It!

rainbowsAnyway, towards the middle of last week I asked for some ideas of what quotes move and motivate my social media audience? I got a handful of lovely pictures back with some great ideas, plus made one or two of my own. I’ve added them through the post today to inspire you for the week ahead and to come back and check out. If you feel inspired, or have a favourite of your own, let me know in the comments below. I might just add them to my collection <3quotes_creator_20180107_1105062039470655.png

Have a great week lovely people, Stay Motivated, Stay Happy
With much love

Davina <3

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Happy New Year 2018

Hey you lovely people, Happy New Year and Welcome to 2018!

I’m just popping in really quickly to wish you all a happy new year mainly, but also to share some of the first exciting news of the new year. I have so much planned for you all, for those I2K followers, customers and freinds, for those of you who love organic skin care and health care, and for those of you keen to learn new things.

img_20180103_094744_4401419709021.jpgWow, so much I need to finish writing the year plan out really, which I will when my new Goal Planning pages arrive from the lovely Natalie at Ultimate Success Planner. I’m going all out for both my businesses this year, and first up I am sharing news on Indigosky2Knit giveaways for the year over in my Facebook Group tonight. If you have missed the Live video, then it’s still there to replay and the counter is counting on who is most chatty.

pexels-photo-208165.jpegAnother huge thing for me this year is Self Care. I started a little last year with various things, working on my mindset, using some EFT, learning about where some of my deep seated pains came from. Is started to forgive more and more of my past, viewing all of the things that have knocked me down in the past as lessons that have brought me to this fabulous point in my life. Finally, there was starting training in aromatherapy and crystal healing, things that have interested me for a long time, but that now I want to explore and learn about more fully.

So Yeah, HUGE plans, all starting out or growing ever more. For now, thanks for being here and look out on Friday for news of another new thing <3

Much love and joy

Davina